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You don’t know what you have until it’s gone.

I was born in a small breeder farm in Pennsylvania. There were 2 females and 4 males in my litter.  We lived in an eight foot pen where we did everything.  Outside our pen live the rest of my pack – 4 adult males and 4 adult female mastiffs.  Taking care of all our needs are our two humans, Tall Male and Round Female.

We led a pretty boring life.  My siblings and me ate, slept and drove each other nuts on the same 8-foot pen all my eight weeks of life.  We get our highs fighting for the most food.  We had no privacy.  We didn’t even have names.  We were just the puppies.

There were two toys for the whole pen.  We had to fight for the right to play with it.

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We never knew sky, never knew grass, never knew dirt.  Just soiled sheets that gets changed a couple of times a day. The same old faces, same old smells, the same old pack. But we were safe.  We were pack.  We were home.

Life Lesson:  Wallow in your sorrow while you may,  However long it takes, it doesn’t stay.


What makes you happy also breaks your heart.

The day was like any other day. Wake up. Eat. Pee and poop. Take a nap, and repeat.

Right before lunch the adults in the pack started going nuts. Visitors!  All the adults rushed out, wanting to be petted.

The humans who came were not even scary looking. They were smaller and  younger than our humans. Their voices sounded kind.  We were so excited when they came and petted us too!  They smelled nice. Different.

I should have known trouble was brewing when the female human who usually gives us food picked me up and started hugging and kissing me.  I loved the attention because she has never singled me out before.  I felt so special because my sisters did not get the same treatment.  I had always thought of myself as just part of everybody else, like everybody else.  Getting the spotlight felt good!  But it didn’t stop there.  The human male also took me and hugged me and kissed me. Then he took me OUTSIDE.  I was beside myself with happiness.  I had never been outside, my sisters have never been outside.  To say that I felt smug is an understatement.  I wanted to dance in front of my sisters to let them know how lucky I was!

Then BAM!  I was at the visitor’s lap and the farm disappeared.  Our humans disappeared, the adults disappeared. I was with the two human visitors and we were moving fast.  The one who carried me kept hugging and petting me. I think I liked the feeling because it was new and the sights and smells are new but I felt very scared too.  After hours of this exhilarating, terrifying ride, I am finally here.

Now I am just tired, scared, and lonely.

Life Lesson: Be wary when humans are too nice. They are probably up to something!